hurry up or you are dead.

interesting piece. i am sure we can relate to this. this is how our lives are. be it teachers, parents, friends, strangers and it some case our inner voices; someone’s constantly ordering us to do things their way but that’s just life. a sad life we humans are developing.

onthestreets

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so many things. my mind’s cluttered worse than a jampacked rush hour train. the good thing  about train is it stops and opens door for people to go out. as for my brain it neither stopping nor opens it’s doors. it’s just moving forward only collecting more passengers and i’m not surprised if it experiences a major breakdown. it did. it sucks to faint. literally. it’s like your body’s given up on you. as i carry my art friend bag with a canvas inside it feels like i’m bringing my pet on a walk… the wind blows as if the bag has a life by itself, it spungs out of control. and it’s so difficult to tame it down sometimes and i end up looking uncool and people around me have a good laugh. it seems all this problems and complications are unbearable, the urge to run away but don’t know where like a lost soul. and as i brood over all the slight complications i realise people around me are facing even bigger complications yet they have their silly smiles up their sleeves and i feel blessed all of a sudden. i should be content. i should be happy. i must smile off my problems cause after a thunderstorm there’s sure a rainbow

3 cups of teh

i skateboard today at east coast. in a correct manner, i tried! haha. i’m a major fail to be exact. all i can do is balance for 4 meters sometimes 7 if lucky. that’s all and i fell off like a zillion times. my bro had a good laugh. *shakes head* and worst i even forget how to roller blade. my legs were shaking as if made of jelly. how worst can my day get? to be honest, i’m so disappointed. i’m a person who believes in versatility, i’d want to achieve it. i’m gonna practice my soul out!!! *determined face*

today was an eye opening experience for me. i need to set my goals right and straight!. i’d was slacking my butt off.  it’s a wake up call for me to get on track and my life.

emptiness.

With everything happening today
You dont know whether you’re coming or going
But you think that you’re on your way
Life lined up on the mirror dont blow it
Look at me when Im talkin to you
You looking at me but I’m lookin through you
I see the blood in your eyes
I see the love in disguise
I see the pain hidden in your pride
I see you’re not satisfied
And I dont see nobody else
I see myself I’m looking at the

Oh, I see the truth in your lies
I see nobody by your side
but I’m with you when you re all alone
And you correct me when Im lookin wrong
I see that guilt beneath the shame
I see your soul through your window pain
I see the scars that remain
I see you Wayne, Im lookin at the.

Lookin at me now I can see my past
Damn I look just like my f-ckin dad
Light it up, thats smokin’ mirrors
I even look good in the broken mirror
I see my momma smile thats a blessin
I see the change, I see the message
and no message could been any clearer
So I’m stared with the man in the…

Mirror on the wall, here we are again

Through my rise and fall

You’ve been my only friend
You told me that they can understand the man I am
So why are we here talkin’ to each other again

(so why are we talkin to each other again)

Mirror on the wall.

i’m on a drug name turpentine.

someone seriously need to kick my ass! my slack mode just refuses to turn off! so so so many things undone. how am i going to survive? hahahah. and i actually had the serious hardcore mood to paint but oil painting’s a bitch. it takes ages to dry and if i just paint i’ll just ruin the whole damn thing. oh marshmallows.

monday blues are creeping up my sleeves already. god bless tomorrow.

pls don’t talk to me, i fall in love so easily.

asphyxiate. the strong yearn to break loose. i do. i do. but i always forget it’s temporary as i’m lugged back to reality. oh those sweet day dreams, i’m in love with you. a need it seems. i wish to just stay there. u see, i am a dreamer. reality is a painful thing to live in. almost impossible. a struggle. yet the challenge seems to intimidate me. oh wells.

and oh these dreams i dream in the cold night. it keeps me restless. it’s like it holds me back from sleep resulting i can’t focus in school because i’m mentally really worked up. school’s so dry that sometimes i wish i rather be in one of the deserts cause i feel as clueless as i would feel there.

it’s funny how i is everyone’s confidante how easily people confide in me. and i think it’s my belief not to share with anyone because they trusted me. but then who am i to confide in for my problems, my insecurities? life’s a weird circle.

sanguine

it’s 12.18am, i’m in a rather cheerful mood that i can’t sleep. maybe school is not as bad as i thought. heh. today was awesome. had so much fun !! teehee. my friend and i were rather bored scanning history books so we did this. we had to do this discreetly due to the librarian hovering. hahaha. i almost wanted to put my face. almost. oh wells, there’s always next time!

oh i’d like to share my resolutions since i’m in a chirpy mood and i did followed them till now

1. NO  junk food! (including fast food and chocolate :[ )
2. stop daydreaming during class. (oops, this is a really hard one)
3. wear socks every time when wearing shoes.
4. drink more water
5. JUST GO WITH THE FLOW.

it’s 2.11am now. the sleep is starting to kick in while the bed’s staring at me. i shall accept it’s sweet invitation! good night!